Reflections of Self in Comparison to Future Happenings....

"Luck is a way of being. Luck is not a little person. Luck is my soul." ~Mademoiselle Gabrielle Chanel A.K.A. Coco Chanel~

Its been several days since I had written and too all my fans SORRY! I have been having to face some of my demons in this process of change! It hasn't been easy not having the support I would have appreciated from some peeps. Oh well, what can I do? I can't lose faith in myself now! I know I have alot to learn hence the Fashion College and I know my sketches aren't perfect, but really is any designers sketches really "PERFECT?" So whether I am in a funk about this process I will always talk it out with my good friends Nici and Cheryl! I love them so much and appreciate their continued faith in me! Sometimes I do think they believe in me more then I believe in myself at this point. It has been a little daunting, but all I can do is move forward and continue with my day to day endeavors of dreaminess towards fulfillment of being world known...

On a much more positive note I have completed three small collections of jewellary! They are so beautiful and let me tell you the process I went through in designing them...I was laying in my bed with my sketchbook in hand and I was looking at the wall facing me which I painted Tiffany Blue and decorated with chandeliers, princess wall mountings and prada books (all for my little newborn princess) and I just started sketching the drape of the chandelier and all of sudden it came to me, "My designs could be anything I want them to be and they may not make sense in the moment, but give it time and they will evolve into something spectacular!"  You see I took that wall as my inspiration, "Breakfast at Tiffanys, Audrey Hepburn, Givenchy, Elegance etc etc etc..." one thought led to another and I came up with some gorgerous pieces! I won't share them on here as I have to figure out how I am to "own" them before I put them on a public site as I don't want anyone stealing my designs and making them their own as they are that beautiful! So with that thought in mind I thought I would head to Yellowknife City Hall and pay the money to legalize my name/business and then maybe with that I will be able to "legally" own my designs? Well I am still doing research on the topic...With regards to this collection I thought I would base the rest of my collection on these themes. I am not sure if that's what "designers" do, but that's what I am going to do for sake of unison!

My fiance bought me some colored pencils (a show of support, maybe well to an extent) nonetheless; I started using them as I am not used to color since I am a Black/White kind of girl. Anyways, I did my own take on a painting I have on my wall of inspiration and well its not done yet but I am thinking of redoing it because I feel I used the wrong color for certain things! Well we will see what happens with that? I did enjoy working with color as I felt like a little girl again coloring, in fact a memory comes to mind when I was a little girl and I was in school and had to borrow pencil crayons from a fellow student (as my momma couldn't afford to buy me any) and she was using the green I needed to color my tree's so instead I opted to use several different shades of green and my teacher came by to look at our work and she told me I was genius in realizing that tree's are all different shades of green! The rest of the class was jealous and it gave me a little bit of an ego boost as I already had low self-esteem back then! I so appreciated the comment from that teacher! Thank you! Anyways, it has been great working with color with this particular sketch and I look forward to working more with color.

After watching some documentaries on Karl Lagerfeld, Vera Wang and Donna Karen I have come up with the conclusion that if they can be successful in the Fashion Industry then so can I! I may not have the start up money and I may be stuck up here in the NorthPole, but I do believe on that if I keep pushing on I am going to make it! Thank you Karl, Vera and Donna for the inspiration!

I have came up with a plan of action...firstly I am going to the Fashion College in Edmonton to gain a diploma and some experience then I will come home to the NorthPole to work on my craft to perfect it, then the following summer I will attend Parsons College program in New York to gain more experience and go home to the NorthPole to continue to work and develop my craft maybe even host a fashion show for charity. Then the next summer I plan on attending Parsons College summer program in Paris, yes Paris folks! The fashion capital of the world my friends. Right now I am not exactly sure how I am going to get to Edmonton to attend Fashion College which commences in the fall of 2010, but I am working on either finding loans and also more importantly finding a job so I can save money towards the $12,000 tuition and perhaps more money to support living expenses! Well the more I research the more I will discover what my options are! I just know deep deep deep in my heart this is what I am destined for and I am willing to do whatever I can to fulfill my dreams...you know its right when it speaks to your soul! Yes I do realize its a tough business to be in but I figure after what I have gone through in my life I can handle this! Just watch me succeed all you non-believers!

"The art of couture is knowing how to enhance" ~Mademoiselle Coco Chanel~

I Am My Own Walking Billboard...

I didn't do much Well today with regards to completing my portfolio, but what I did do is dress up in my own sense of creativity and attend a cocktail party! I was told that I looked extravagant and gorgerous! lol I just put my twist on the simplest outfit of black tights, black skirt and a black cowl neck sweater and added a huge black rhinestone flower off one side of my sweater. Looked so elegant dahlins! Nonetheless spent the whole night talking about fashion with my friends and it was quite lovely!
Although my fiance was upset with me and my social mannerisms I still managed to have a good time!


Mwah Mwah Dahlins...
MissKiraFabulous

Oh The Dream...

Today was certainly a better day then yesterday. I had no negativity thrown my way in my pursuit of happiness if you will. In fact I received alot of positivity, understanding and I think acceptance.
I made it a point today to make more of an effort to pursue this dream and did some research to see exactly where this school was located so that I could scot out homes and daycare since I will be taking my MissContessa with me (well my other dahlins too if they want to come). And I also sent out an email to the College with several questions pertaining to the deadlines of submission of my portfolio. The school is so amazing and absolutely accomodating. They recommended some websites for housing and daycare and told me that my portfolio does not have to be submitted until the very least of six weeks prior to the start date! Which gives me more then enough time to tackle these projects.
Meanwhile I could not help but day dream of one day going to Paris and studying Fashion! My ideal, my dream would be to study the art alongside Karl Lagenfeld of the House of Coco Chanel! I luvs him so much and think that he is an absolutely amazing designer...probably my most inspiration! LUVS HIM...
I didn't do any sketching today but have lots of ideas in my brain that I need to put down on paper...also my dear friend Cheryl and I went to take a look at patterns today at the only place up here in the NORTHFUCKINPOLE that sells patterns FUCKIN WALMART and we came up with some simple and hopefully easy things to sew (especially because I can't sew worth shit) and found some materials (although I haven't purchased them yet) that would go with the designs for now. Although the more I think of it the more I want to add and change a little of the designs to make them more me. Well we will see how that goes. Guess I will have to sketch out what I envision and see where that takes me.
I also must say that my bestest friend Nici was on hand this night to direct me in telling me what the fuck certain terminology was with regards to the patterns like interfacing! What the fuck is that I asked? lol...she is the greatest seamstress I know of! Thank god for her! Luvs her... 
I also purchased some things so that I can organize my beads for my 3 dimensional piece. Which reminds me that I have some more sketching to do on that piece because I am trying to learn how to execute what I envision. Cheryl and I took some pictures of jewls in FUCKINWALMART of some sort of nice pieces so that maybe I can draw upon them for technique...but I must say that my inspiration comes from the House of Coco Chanel herself! She was such an amazing designer and I luvs her...
Aaaaaawwwww my MissKehaya was so cute today! She said, "mom you don't have to pay for my birthday party because I want you to save you money for Fashion School!" Bless her heart! I luvs her so much as she is always thinking of me when she senses I am passionate about something! *DON'T YOU WORRY BABY MOMMY WILL ALWAYS MAKE YOUR BIRTHDAYS SOMETHING TO ABSOLUTELY CELEBRATE!*
Luvs my family so much!


Mwah Mwah Dahlins...


MissKiraFabulous

Optimizing My Potential and Dealing With Discouragement...

Ok today was a particular rough day as I was faced with opinions that mattered to me a lot but are failing to support this new endeavor! Wow, talk about discouraging and complete negativity! I personally don't know how to respond at this time. How am I going to prove to those that don't have faith in me or let alone faith in the Fashion Industry that I can and will be successful? Guess I will have to just motor on and believe in myself no matter what!
What I did and/or accomplished this day was I dropped off a resume at Chez Patricia Boutique in hopes of getting a part time position so that I can at least gain some experience with clothes, but sadly poor Patricia is suffering during this recession and is not hiring. But she did keep my resume! Guess that is a plus because one never knows. Also I purchased the goods to create my 3 dimensional piece and did some sketches of my creation. Don't know exactly what at this moment what I am creating just that I am completely inspired by the Chandiler (I know prob. misspelled) nonetheless; I am doing my sketches and planning out all the beads I purchased. Speaking of which...I live in a very Northern small place and the only outlet for me to purchase said pieces was WALMART!  Oh my fuckin gosh! Oh well guess I have to make the best with what I have right!?! Well I did manage to get some real GLASS! LOL...would have loved crystal and perhaps real diamonds but what the heck a girl can dream right and make due with what she has.
I have been also giving it quite alot of thought as to what I am going to sew; so I did ask my dear friend Nici (whom is the best seamstress I know) what the easiest things would be to sew and she said, "skirts, and one piece dresses! So my imagination has been going wild (as Karl L. would say) and busy thinking of many different possibilites of those garments and how I can incorporate my sense of style! Luvs it....gosh I just love all this creativity and frankly I have deeply missed it!
I would add pics of my latest but haven't figured out how to do that yet! But I guess in time I will get used to this blogging business and this site and have it all figured out! So stay tuned for pics...oh my gosh did I mention that I also love photography? Well I luvs photography so much and I know I have an eye for it as I can look at anything and just know how to frame it! Apparently that is a gift that most people don't have! Lucky me...I am blessed!
Anyways dahlins once I figure out how to add pics on here I will for sure add all my pics of the sketches and my progress!


Luvs ya,


MissKiraFabulous Dahlins...Mwah Mwah!

Realization of my Passion for Fashion...

Hello everyone,



Ok here is what I am going to do...blog my journey from this day until the day I graduate from Fashion School. Sounds easy! Not quite...here's the beginning of my story.



My name is Kira and on this day I realized that my desire was always fashion related! You see I entered a stage in my life where I was feeling lost and empty, like I had absolutely no goals, no dreams nothing to work towards. And well after careful thinking, praying, researching and going from one crazy thought to the next I stumbled upon a Fashion College website! As I scrolled down the page and read about all the courses and the procedures I would have to go through to attend said College I began feeling that old feeling of "I am not good enough!" As my thoughts were, "holy shit I can't sew, I can't draw worth shit! What am I going to do?" So I ended up closing down my website with the thought that I would sleep on it and see how I feel when I woke up. Well, I slept on it and when I awoke the desire was still there. As the day progressed memories of my childhood and years later began flooding my mind and the more these memories surfaced the more I realized that I was heading in the right direction. I desperately needed to talk with someone and although I did try with my fiance, he wasn't attuned to my new found idea. So what better person to talk to was my friend Cheryl, my neighbor and fellow lost soul (sometimes)! I called and asked if I could visit and with that she was more then obliging.



I go over to Cheryl's just totally desperate to share my new idea with her and to tell her about all my previous introductions to the world of fashion.



Firstly I argued that when I was a little girl maybe around 8 years old my mom bought me a cabbage patch kid doll and her name was Alex Lulu Bubbles Martin and I used to tear up my old clothes and proceed to make new clothes for her! Even though I really had no idea of what I was doing, all I do remember is that I had a vision in my mind of what I wanted to create and tried my best to make it.



Secondly I argued that when I was 10 I wrote a satirical play on the book "Huckleberry Fin" and got my fellow classmates to be my cast and in which case I made all their costumes out of potatoe sacks because they were free at the local supermarket!



Thirdly I would argue that when my children were very little (this is before I went to University) I used to be very crafty and make jewellary, sew regalia, belts and bead. But gave up on all this because I felt I didn't know what I was doing and instead opted to attend University full-time and come out with a couple degrees that were totally not fashion orianted. (Although my heart still into anything creative, stylish, fashionable.)



Anyways, my friend helped me realize all the conditioning I have had throughout my life and helped me see that maybe I am destined to have a career in the Fashion Industry. Thanks Cheryl!



And still I have no idea how I will get to this Fashion School? I just have faith and know that I will!



So from this moment on I will be blogging my journey starting this day and share everything that I have to go through. Firstly though I must complete the first stage which is doing all that is required to submit an application and registration. This includes me having to sew three garments (did I mention that I cannot sew), creating a collage of colored paper to represent scenery(cut and glue right?), creating a 3 dimensional piece (like a necklace), creating a collage of this seasons trends using magazine cutouts(this should be easy since I have every Vogue fromt the past 3 years), picking a season and designing 5 looks (did I mention I really can't draw?) hhhmmm can't remember what else. Intimidating yes! Unachievable NO! I believe in myself and will continually be blogging on here as well as posting pictures of my work!



So stay tuned and stay posted...



Mwah Mwah Dahlins!